Thursday, April 23, 2009

i give up
everything i hold
everything i have
my life is screwed
i can't open my eyes

my life is twisting around,
turn upside
d
o
w
n

God hear my cry
help me
i need you more than ever now
satan's temptation is so close to me
i can't breath
i need you Lord
you know exactly what i want
but i also know it's not what YOU want
it's not right
it's not the best choice
but it's what i want
and Satan is betting his last dollar
that i'll probably choose
my choice
over yours

the walls even lean to listen to my grief
and mock me for my sorrows
the clock is ticking
the wind is blowing
the trees are whispering
the cars are screeching
i can't concentrate...

the pen knife next to me
is it right?
i've done 1 wrong thing today
won't another wrong make it right?
i can't breathe again.
where are you Lord?

tomorrow i might be lying in a pool of blood
or i'll be awake in the middle of the night
either way
i will not know
whether i made the right choice
or the wrong
all i know
and hope
is to look into the future
and not see myself staring back
weeping and asking
"why have you done this to me?"

i know you're with me God
i feel you
but Satan is with me too
he's choking me
but you won't come
till i call and cry for you Lord
help me God
release Satan's grip from my heart
it's about to rip into 2
and will never be sewn back again

why do i have to choose, God?
why?
why why why won't the world revolve round me?
why why why won't people give in?
why why why is sin be easily killed
and conquered so fast?

i hate my life
it hates me
but why won't decisions be easy?

i'm falling God!
i'm crying Lord!
i'm weeping Jesus!
i'm reaching for you Holy Spirit!
but
i'm screaming Satan...
i'm trying to fight Demons...
i'm grasping Sin...
i'm defendless...
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tomorrow is just another day
another hour
another torture
another blessing
another present

whether i'll live after tomorrow?
no one knows
but God
God...
ha
God
hahahaha
God...

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